| NOT heaving from my ribbed breast only, |
| Not in sighs at night, in rage, dissatisfied with myself, |
| Not in those long-drawn, ill-suppressed sighs, |
| Not in many an oath and promise broken, |
| Not in my wilful and savage soul's volition, |
| Not in the subtle nourishment of the air, |
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Not in this beating and pounding at my temples and
wrists, |
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Not in the curious systole and diastole within, which
will one day cease, |
| Not in many a hungry wish, told to the skies only, |
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Not in cries, laughter, defiances, thrown from me
when alone, far in the wilds, |
| Not in husky pantings through clenched teeth, |
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Not in sounded and resounded words—chattering
words, echoes, dead words, |
| Not in the murmurs of my dreams while I sleep, |
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Nor the other murmurs of these incredible dreams of
every day, |
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Nor in the limbs and senses of my body, that take you
and dismiss you continually—Not there, |
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Not in any or all of them, O adhesiveness! O pulse
of my life! |
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Need I that you exist and show yourself, any more
than in these songs. |