Leaves of Grass (1867)

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CALAMUS.




 

IN PATHS UNTRODDEN.

IN paths untrodden,
In the growth by margins of pond-waters,
Escaped from the life that exhibits itself,
From all the standards hitherto publish'd—from the
         pleasures, profits, conformities,
Which too long I was offering to feed my Soul;
Clear to me, now, standards not yet publish'd—clear
         to me that my Soul,
That the Soul of the man I speak for, feeds, rejoices
         in comrades;
Here, by myself, away from the clank of the world,
Tallying and talk'd to here by tongues aromatic,
No longer abash'd—for in this secluded spot I can
         respond as I would not dare elsewhere,
Strong upon me the life that does not exhibit itself,
         yet contains all the rest,
Resolv'd to sing no songs to-day but those of manly
         attachment,
Projecting them along that substantial life,
Bequeathing, hence, types of athletic love,
Afternoon, this delicious Ninth-month, in my forty-
         first year,
I proceed, for all who are, or have been, young men,
To tell the secret of my nights and days,
To celebrate the need of comrades.

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SCENTED HERBAGE OF MY BREAST.

SCENTED herbage of my breast,
Leaves from you I yield, I write, to be perused best
         afterwards,
Tomb-leaves, growing up above me, above
         death,
Perennial roots, tall leaves—O the winter shall not
         freeze you, delicate leaves,
Every year shall you bloom again—Out from where
         you retired, you shall emerge again;
O I do not know whether many, passing by, will dis-
         cover you, or inhale your faint odor—but I
         believe a few will;
O slender leaves! O blossoms of my blood! I permit
         you to tell, in your own way, of the heart that
         is under you;
O burning and throbbing—surely all will one day be
         accomplish'd;
O I do not know what you mean, there underneath
         yourselves—you are not happiness,
You are often more bitter than I can bear—you burn
         and sting me,
Yet you are very beautiful to me, you faint-tinged
         roots—you make me think of Death,
Death is beautiful from you—(what indeed is beauti-
         ful, except Death and Love?)
O I think it is not for life I am chanting here my
         chant of lovers—I think it must be for Death,
For how calm, how solemn it grows, to ascend to the
         atmosphere of lovers,
Death or life I am then indifferent—my Soul declines
         to prefer,
I am not sure but the high Soul of lovers welcomes
         death most;
Indeed, O Death, I think now these leaves mean pre-
         cisely the same as you mean;

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Grow up taller, sweet leaves, that I may see! grow
         up out of my breast!
Spring away from the conceal'd heart there!
Do not fold yourself so in your pink-tinged roots,
         timid leaves!
Do not remain down there so ashamed, herbage of my
         breast!
Come, I am determin'd to unbare this broad breast of
         mine—I have long enough stifled and choked:
Emblematic and capricious blades, I leave you—now
         you serve me not;
Away! I will say what I have to say, by itself,
I will escape from the sham that was proposed to
         me,
I will sound myself and comrades only—I will never
         again utter a call, only their call,
I will raise with it, immortal reverberations through
         The States,
I will give an example to lovers, to take permanent
         shape and will through The States;
Through me shall the words be said to make death
         exhilarating;
Give me your tone therefore, O Death, that I may
         accord with it,
Give me yourself—for I see that you belong to me
         now above all, and are folded inseparably to-
         gether—you Love and Death are;
Nor will I allow you to balk me any more with what I
         was calling life,
For now it is convey'd to me that you are the pur-
         ports essential,
That you hide in these shifting forms of life, for reasons
         —and that they are mainly for you,
That you, beyond them, come forth, to remain, the
         real reality,
That behind the mask of materials you patiently wait,
         no matter how long,
That you will one day, perhaps take control of all,

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That you will perhaps dissipate this entire show of
         appearance,
That may be you are what it is all for—but it does not
         last so very long,
But you will last very long.



 

Whoever you are, Holding me now in Hand.


1   WHOEVER you are, holding me now in hand,
Without one thing, all will be useless,
I give you fair warning, before you attempt me
         further,
I am not what you supposed, but far different.

2   Who is he that would become my follower?
Who would sign himself a candidate for my affections?

3   The way is suspicious—the result uncertain, perhaps
         destructive;
You would have to give up all else—I alone would ex-
         pect to be your God, sole and exclusive,
Your novitiate would even then be long and exhaust-
         ing,
The whole past theory of your life, and all conformity
         to the lives around you, would have to be aban-
         doned;
Therefore release me now, before troubling yourself
         any further—Let go your hand from my
         shoulders,
Put me down, and depart on your way.

4   Or else, by stealth, in some wood, for trial,
Or back of a rock, in the open air,
(For in any roof'd room of a house I emerge not—nor
         in company,

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And in libraries I lie as one dumb, a gawk, or unborn,
         or dead,)
But just possibly with you on a high hill—first watch-
         ing lest any person, for miles around, ap-
         proach unawares,
Or possibly with you sailing at sea, or on the beach of
         the sea, or some quiet island,
Here to put your lips upon mine I permit you,
With the comrade's long-dwelling kiss, or the new
         husband's kiss,
For I am the new husband, and I am the comrade.

5   Or, if you will, thrusting me beneath your clothing,
Where I may feel the throbs of your heart, or rest
         upon your hip,
Carry me when you go forth over land or sea;
For thus, merely touching you, is enough—is best,
And thus, touching you, would I silently sleep and be
         carried eternally.

6   But these leaves conning, you con at peril,
For these leaves, and me, you will not understand,
They will elude you at first, and still more afterward
         —I will certainly elude you,
Even while you should think you had unquestionably
         caught me, behold!
Already you see I have escaped from you.

7   For it is not for what I have put into it that I have
         written this book,
Nor is it by reading it you will acquire it,
Nor do those know me best who admire me, and
         vauntingly praise me,
Nor will the candidates for my love, (unless at most a
         very few,) prove victorious,
Nor will my poems do good only—they will do just as
         much evil, perhaps more;
For all is useless without that which you may guess at
         many times and not hit—that which I hinted at;
Therefore release me, and depart on your way.

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THESE I, SINGING IN SPRING.

THESE, I, singing in spring, collect for lovers,
(For who but I should understand lovers, and all their
         sorrow and joy?
And who but I should be the poet of comrades?)
Collecting, I traverse the garden, the world—but soon
         I pass the gates,
Now along the pond-side—now wading in a little,
         fearing not the wet,
Now by the post-and-rail fences, where the old stones
         thrown there, pick'd from the fields, have accu-
         mulated,
Wild-flowers and vines and weeds come up through
         the stones, and partly cover them—Beyond
         these I pass,
Far, far in the forest, before I think where I go,
Solitary, smelling the earthy smell, stopping now and
         then in the silence,
Alone I had thought—yet soon a silent troop gathers
         around me,
Some walk by my side, and some behind, and some
         embrace my arms or neck,
They, the spirits of friends, dead or alive—thicker
         they come, a great crowd, and I in the middle,
Collecting, dispensing, singing in spring, there I wan-
         der with them,
Plucking something for tokens—tossing toward who-
         ever is near me;
Here! lilac, with a branch of pine,
Here out of my pocket, some moss which I pull'd off
         a live-oak in Florida, as it hung trailing down,
Here, some pinks and laurel leaves, and a handful of
         sage,
And here what I now draw from the water, wading in
         the pond-side,
(O here I last saw him that tenderly loves me—and
         returns again, never to separate from me,

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And this, O this shall henceforth be the token of com-
         rades—this Calamus-root shall,
Interchange it, youths, with each other! Let none
         render it back!)
And twigs of maple, and a bunch of wild orange, and
         chestnut,
And stems of currants, and plum-blows, and the aro-
         matic cedar:
These, I, compass'd around by a thick cloud of spirits,
Wandering, point to, or touch as I pass, or throw them
         loosely from me,
Indicating to each one what he shall have—giving
         something to each;
But what I drew from the water by the pond-side,
         that I reserve,
I will give of it—but only to them that love, as I my-
         self am capable of loving.



 

A SONG.



 

1

COME, I will make the continent indissoluble;
I will make the most splendid race the sun ever yet
         shone upon;
I will make divine magnetic lands,
         With the love of comrades,
         With the life-long love of comrades.


 

2

I will plant companionship thick as trees along all the
         rivers of America, and along the shores of the
         great lakes, and all over the prairies;
I will make inseparable cities, with their arms about
         each other's necks;
         By the love of comrades,
         By the manly love of comrades.

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3

For you these, from me, O Democracy, to serve you,
         ma femme!
For you! for you, I am trilling these songs,
         In the love of comrades,
         In the high-towering love of comrades.



 

Not Heaving from my Ribb'd Breast only.

NOT heaving from my ribb'd breast only;
Not in sighs at night, in rage, dissatisfied with myself;
Not in those long-drawn, ill-supprest sighs;
Not in many an oath and promise broken;
Not in my wilful and savage soul's volition;
Not in the subtle nourishment of the air;
Not in this beating and pounding at my temples and
         wrists;
Not in the curious systole and diastole within, which
         will one day cease;
Not in many a hungry wish, told to the skies only;
Not in cries, laughter, defiances, thrown from me when
         alone, far in the wilds;
Not in husky pantings through clench'd teeth;
Not in sounded and resounded words—chattering
         words, echoes, dead words;
Not in the murmurs of my dreams while I sleep,
Nor the other murmurs of these incredible dreams of
         every day;
Nor in the limbs and senses of my body, that take you
         and dismiss you continually—Not there;
Not in any or all of them, O adhesiveness! O pulse
         of my life!
Need I that you exist and show yourself, any more
         than in these songs.

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Of the Terrible Doubt of Appearances.

OF the terrible doubt of appearances,
Of the uncertainty after all—that we may be deluded,
That may-be reliance and hope are but speculations
         after all,
That may-be identity beyond the grave is a beautiful
         fable only,
May-be the things I perceive—the animals, plants, men,
         hills, shining and flowing waters,
The skies of day and night—colors, densities, forms—
         May-be these are, (as doubtless they are,) only
         apparitions, and the real something has yet to be
         known;
(How often they dart out of themselves, as if to con-
         found me and mock me!
How often I think neither I know, nor any man knows,
         aught of them;)
May-be seeming to me what they are, (as doubtless
         they indeed but seem,) as from my present point
         of view—And might prove, (as of course they
         would,) naught of what they appear, or naught
         anyhow, from entirely changed points of view;
—To me, these, and the like of these, are curiously
         answer'd by my lovers, my dear friends;
When he whom I love travels with me, or sits a long
         while holding me by the hand,
When the subtle air, the impalpable, the sense that
         words and reason hold not, surround us and
         pervade us,
Then I am charged with untold and untellable wisdom
         —I am silent—I require nothing further,
I cannot answer the question of appearances, or that
         of identity beyond the grave;
But I walk or sit indifferent—I am satisfied,
He ahold of my hand has completely satisfied me.

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RECORDERS AGES HENCE.

RECORDERS ages hence!
Come, I will take you down underneath this impassive
         exterior—I will tell you what to say of me;
Publish my name and hang up my picture as that of
         the tenderest lover,
The friend, the lover's portrait, of whom his friend,
         his lover, was fondest,
Who was not proud of his songs, but of the measure-
         less ocean of love within him—and freely
         pour'd it forth,
Who often walk'd lonesome walks, thinking of his
         dear friends, his lovers,
Who pensive, away from one he lov'd, often lay sleep-
         less and dissatisfied at night,
Who knew too well the sick, sick dread lest the one
         he lov'd might secretly be indifferent to him,
Whose happiest days were far away, through fields,
         in woods, on hills, he and another, wandering
         hand in hand, they twain, apart from other
         men,
Who oft as he saunter'd the streets, curved with his
         arm the shoulder of his friend—while the arm
         of his friend rested upon him also.



 

When I Heard at the Close of the Day.

WHEN I heard at the close of the day how my name
         had been receiv'd with plaudits in the capitol,
         still it was not a happy night for me that fol-
         low'd;
And else, when I carous'd, or when my plans were
         accomplish'd, still I was not happy;
But the day when I rose at dawn from the bed of
         perfect health, refresh'd, singing, inhaling the
         ripe breath of autumn,

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When I saw the full moon in the west grow pale and
         disappear in the morning light,
When I wander'd alone over the beach, and undress-
         ing, bathed, laughing with the cool waters, and
         saw the sun rise,
And when I thought how my dear friend, my lover,
         was on his way coming, O then I was happy;
O then each breath tasted sweeter—and all that day
         my food nourish'd me more—and the beautiful
         day pass'd well,
And the next came with equal joy—and with the next,
         at evening, came my friend;
And that night, while all was still, I heard the waters
         roll slowly continually up the shores,
I heard the hissing rustle of the liquid and sands, as
         directed to me, whispering, to congratulate me,
For the one I love most lay sleeping by me under the
         same cover in the cool night,
In the stillness, in the autumn moonbeams, his face
         was inclined toward me,
And his arm lay lightly around my breast—and that
         night I was happy.



 

Are you the New Person Drawn Toward me?

ARE you the new person drawn toward me?
To begin with, take warning—I am surely far differ-
         ent from what you suppose;
Do you suppose you will find in me your ideal?
Do you think it so easy to have me become your
         lover?
Do you think the friendship of me would be unalloy'd
         satisfaction?
Do you think I am trusty and faithful?

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Do you see no further than this façade—this smooth
         and tolerant manner of me?
Do you suppose yourself advancing on real ground
         toward a real heroic man?
Have you no thought, O dreamer, that it may be all
         maya, illusion?



 

Roots and Leaves Themselves Alone.

ROOTS and leaves themselves alone are these;
Scents brought to men and women from the wild
         woods, and from the pond-side,
Breast-sorrel and pinks of love—fingers that wind
         around tighter than vines,
Gushes from the throats of birds, hid in the foliage
         of trees, as the sun is risen;
Breezes of land and love—breezes set from living
         shores out to you on the living sea—to you,
         O sailors!
Frost-mellow'd berries, and Third-month twigs,
         offer'd fresh to young persons wandering out
         in the fields when the winter breaks up,
Love-buds, put before you and within you, whoever
         you are,
Buds to be unfolded on the old terms;
If you bring the warmth of the sun to them, they
         will open, and bring form, color, perfume, to
         you;
If you become the aliment and the wet, they will
         become flowers, fruits, tall branches and trees.

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Not Heat Flames up and Consumes.

NOT heat flames up and consumes,
Not sea-waves hurry in and out,
Not the air, delicious and dry, the air of the ripe
         summer, bears lightly along white down-balls
         of myriads of seeds,
Wafted, sailing gracefully, to drop where they may;
Not these—O none of these, more than the flames of
         me, consuming, burning for his love whom I
         love!
O none, more than I, hurrying in and out;
Does the tide hurry, seeking something, and never
         give up? O I the same;
O nor down-balls, nor perfumes, nor the high, rain-
         emitting clouds, are borne through the open
         air,
Any more than my Soul is borne through the open
         air,
Wafted in all directions, O love, for friendship, for
         you.



 

TRICKLE, DROPS.

TRICKLE, drops! my blue veins leaving!
O drops of me! trickle, slow drops,
Candid, from me falling—drip, bleeding drops,
From wounds made to free you whence you were
         prison'd,
From my face—from my forehead and lips,
From my breast—from within where I was conceal'd
         —press forth, red drops—confession drops;
Stain every page—stain every song I sing, every word
         I say, bloody drops;

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Let them know your scarlet heat—let them glisten;
Saturate them with yourself, all ashamed and wet;
Glow upon all I have written or shall write, bleeding
         drops;
Let it all be seen in your light, blushing drops.



 

Of Him I Love Day and Night.

OF him I love day and night, I dream'd I heard he was
         dead;
And I dream'd I went where they had buried him I love
         —but he was not in that place;
And I dream'd I wander'd, searching among burial-
         places, to find him;
And I found that every place was a burial-place;
The houses full of life were equally full of death, (this
         house is now;)
The streets, the shipping, the places of amusement,
         the Chicago, Boston, Philadelphia, the Manna-
         hatta, were as full of the dead as of the living,
And fuller, O vastly fuller, of the dead than of the
         living;
—And what I dream'd I will henceforth tell to every
         person and age,
And I stand henceforth bound to what I dream'd;
And now I am willing to disregard burial-places, and
         dispense with them;
And if the memorials of the dead were put up indif-
         ferently everywhere, even in the room where I
         eat or sleep, I should be satisfied;
And if the corpse of any one I love, or if my own
         corpse, be duly render'd to powder, and pour'd
         in the sea, I shall be satisfied;
Or if it be distributed to the winds, I shall be sat-
         isfied.

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CITY OF ORGIES.

CITY of orgies, walks and joys!
City whom that I have lived and sung in your midst
         will one day make you illustrious,
Not the pageants of you—not your shifting tableaux,
         your spectacles, repay me;
Not the interminable rows of your houses—nor the
         ships at the wharves,
Nor the processions in the streets, nor the bright win-
         dows, with goods in them;
Nor to converse with learn'd persons, or bear my share
         in the soiree or feast;
Not those—but, as I pass, O Manhattan! your fre-
         quent and swift flash of eyes offering me love,
Offering response to my own—these repay me;
Lovers, continual lovers, only repay me.



 

BEHOLD THIS SWARTHY FACE.

BEHOLD this swarthy face, this unrefined face—these
         gray eyes,
This beard—the white wool, unclipt upon my neck,
My brown hands, and the silent manner of me, with-
         out charm;
Yet comes one, a Manhattanese, and ever at parting,
         kisses me lightly on the lips with robust love,
And I, in the public room, or on the crossing of the
         street, or on the ship's deck, kiss him in return;
We observe that salute of American comrades, land
         and sea,
We are those two natural and nonchalant persons.